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June 1, 2005

One Who Heals Tobit 3:1-11a, 16-17a

Grief-stricken in spirit, I, Tobit, groaned and wept aloud. Then with sobs I began to pray:

"You are righteous, O Lord, and all your deeds are just; All your ways are mercy and truth; you are the judge of the world. And now, O Lord, may you be mindful of me, and look with favor upon me. Punish me not for my sins, nor for my inadvertent offenses, nor for those of my ancestors.

"We sinned against you, and disobeyed your commandments. So you handed us over to plundering, exile, and death, till you made us the talk and reproach of all the nations among whom you had dispersed us.

"Yes, your judgments are many and true in dealing with me as my sins
and those of my ancestors deserve. For we have not kept your commandments, nor have we trodden the paths of truth before you.

"So now, deal with me as you please, and command my life breath to be taken from me, that I may go from the face of the earth into dust. It is better for me to die than to live, because I have heard insulting calumnies, and I am overwhelmed with grief.

"Lord, command me to be delivered from such anguish; let me go to the everlasting abode; Lord, refuse me not. For it is better for me to die than to endure so much misery in life, and to hear these insults!"

On the same day, at Ecbatana in Media, it so happened that Raguel's daughter Sarah also had to listen to abuse, from one of her father's maids. For she had been married to seven husbands, but the wicked demon Asmodeus killed them off before they could have intercourse with her, as it is prescribed for wives. So the maid said to her: "You are the one who strangles your husbands! Look at you! You have already been married seven times, but you have had no joy with any one of your husbands. Why do you beat us? Is it on account of your seven husbands,
Because they are dead? May we never see a son or daughter of yours!"

The girl was deeply saddened that day, and she went into an upper chamber of her house, where she planned to hang herself.

But she reconsidered, saying to herself: "No! People would level this insult against my father: ‘You had only one beloved daughter, but she hanged herself because of ill fortune!' And thus would I cause my father in his old age to go down to the nether world laden with sorrow. It is far better for me not to hang myself, but to beg the Lord to have me die, so that I need no longer live to hear such insults."

At that time, then, she spread out her hands, and facing the window, poured out her prayer:

"Blessed are you, O Lord, merciful God, and blessed is your holy and honorable name. Blessed are you in all your works for ever!"

At that very time, the prayer of these two suppliants was heard in the glorious presence of Almighty God. So Raphael was sent to heal them both: to remove the cataracts from Tobit's eyes, so that he might again see God's sunlight; and to marry Raguel's daughter Sarah to Tobit's son Tobiah, and then drive the wicked demon Asmodeus from her.

The one who was sent to heal them is Raphael whose name means one who heals. Tobit and Sarah are in deep despair and at their low point in their lives at the same time, they are close to God and ask God for assistance.

It is a critical choice that is a free will choice in the deepest troubles we can prayer to God and stay close to God or we can feel abandoned and move away from God without asking God to help us. I am so grateful that in my life there has been a time that I moved closer to God in my need and my prayers were answered.

When I have troubles and questions of faith, I need only to remember the times that God has listened and responded to my prayers.

It is of interest that at the same time that Sarah is calling upon God for help that Tobit is also. When I feel that I am in despair there is a sense of being the only person on earth experiencing that despair and yet in this story the two people are calling upon God in their need at the same time. The sense of not being alone in struggle and trial is a very real strength as a believer in God.

The archangel Raphael has a very special place in my heart. Raphael is often depicted carrying a large fish under one arm. Later in the story, fish oil is used by the angel to regain Tobit's sight. God gives the elements of what is needed to heal, the insight and spirit to see how to be an instrument of healing is something I will pray for today. Every morning, I pray before I leave for the clinic that God will give me the help that I need to properly care for the people that I will encounter that day.

Sometimes healing comes from truly hearing what the person in need of healing is saying. Other times it can come from truly seeing what is before me. I know that all true healing is from God and I pray to be of use as an instrument of God.