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August 1, 2005

Doubt Mt 14:22-36

Jesus made the disciples get into a boat and precede him to the other side of the sea, while he dismissed the crowds. After doing so, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When it was evening he was there alone. Meanwhile the boat, already a few miles offshore, was being tossed about by the waves, for the wind was against it. During the fourth watch of the night,
he came toward them, walking on the sea. When the disciples saw him walking on the sea they were terrified. "It is a ghost," they said, and they cried out in fear. At once Jesus spoke to them, "Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid." Peter said to him in reply, "Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water." He said, "Come." Peter got out of the boat and began to walk on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw how strong the wind was he became frightened;
and, beginning to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" After they got into the boat, the wind died down. Those who were in the boat did him homage, saying, "Truly, you are the Son of God."

Do not be afraid. Take courage. Jesus is walking on water. Peter is anxious to do the same and asks for this. At first he is able to walk on water, but when he becomes frightened he starts to sink.

This reminds me of teaching adults how to swim. When they were trusting and relaxed, there bodies would float on the top of the water and we could practice movements kicking and moving arms. At the first moment of apprehension or fear that they could not swim, their body muscles would tighten and they would become heavier and begin to sink.